Looking Forward to Life

Apr 15, 2016 | On Motherhood | 9 comments

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

The sun is shining. It’s 52 degrees.

And these days, that’s a big deal. It only stopped snowing here last week and not one thing has been planted in the garden.

Not ONE.

As frustrated as I am, I’ve got this weird peace about it right now… though I expect that peace to evaporate any minute with my love for work.   But the calm has been nice.

I feel evenly-paced instead of frantic, even without my onions planted yet.

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

March was huge for our family. Purposely so.

We set a colossal goal for our Essential Oil business and defeated all the odds and achieved it. The hard work will pay off for years and has launched us to meet our next goal. Every family member played a role, (Team Reed) we had a plan and we crushed it. We stayed put Easter Sunday and just celebrated the Resurrection as a family. But whew… I’m still pooped. And super pregnant. Eternally so, or so it feels.

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

In my exhaustion, I’ve spent the last couple weeks in limbo. Waiting to recover from the exertion, waiting to plant, waiting to give birth… just waiting to even see buds on the trees.

Waiting and looking forward to life.

My belly feels so tight already that I can’t imagine getting any bigger, though I know it’s going to happen.   It’s all very real now. The lower back pain, leg cramps and thoughts of experiencing labor once again. I’m really struggling to wrap my head around all that… going thru that again. And, self-described birth guru or not, I’d be lying if I said my heart doesn’t pick up speed when I remember those waves of pain.

Whoever said that you forget the pain of childbirth must have had an epidural. This Momma ain’t forgot nothin’.

This little one is a wild one. Kicking, flipping, punching… Or maybe it’s been eleven years of seemingly constant pregnancy and now every karate chop makes me sick to my stomach. I just want him here. I want this over with and I want my life consumed with the sweet smell of baby once again.

I’m done feeling miserable and want to clean my house in a day and not have to take two days to recover.   The children are so excited. In so many ways this feels like more their baby, than mine. They constantly talk to him, telling him how much they want to play Legos with him. They study my belly for signs of those powerful kicks and every day we take a chain off our beautiful paper chain to count down the days ’til his arrival.

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

Dear Lord, please let him come early. 

Please.

And fast like the other ones.

In fast, could he just fall out? Like, “Oh, there you are!”.

Please?

Looking forward to life: Patiently Awaiting this Sweet Baby

Even now, as lean forward to type he is squirming in protest. Yes, I’ll be happy to hold him in my arms.  But I’ve got miles to go before I sleep. About 11-12 weeks to be exact. An eternity.

Sigh.

For now, I’m prepping the potatoes to plant, we’ll finally till the soil and get the onions in the ground in a few days… I’ll follow up with all my new oil customers and try to keep the heartburn at bay.

I know life is now. Thousands of beautiful moments a day with my little ones, the page turning of a good book, a fresh cup of coffee and the love of my man… it’s a bad habit to find yourself constantly looking forward to better days but…

I’m looking forward to bright green and flowers and the life of this sweet little one going on before my eyes instead of below my skin.

Soon and very soon.

Thanks for reading, Angela Parisienne Farmgirl

 

9 Comments

  1. mandy

    He’ll be here before you know it. Easy for me to say, huh? 😉 I also never forgot the pain of childbirth. I don’t get those that possibly could…maybe you’re right and those are the ones who had pain management. Pretty sure I’ll remember that for life. Lovely little count down.

    It snowed here today in Southeast Idaho. gag. It snowed mayeb once and year in Oregon. This is a whole new ball game for me. We did have 70s for a couple weeks though.

    Hang in there mama.

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  2. Donna

    I’m looking forward to seeing him on your blog also! Spring is coming, and then summer, just think of that little guy watching all that goes on during the “busy” season on the farm. Wishing you easy days and an easy delivery!

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  3. Joannah

    I do remember that feeling! It was so hard to wait – especially feeling so poorly. I get you! Hang in there. He’s worth the wait. 🙂

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  4. Nita Hiltner

    This might be your last one, so enjoy being pregnant. I loved it. Best time of your life is when your little ones are little.

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  5. Becca

    I’m so happy to read your update!
    Blessings on the rest of your pregnancy.
    Oh, and try Tropical Oasis liquid calcium/magnesium. My midwife encouraged me to take it while pregnant with our youngest (now almost 10). World of difference in back and round ligament pain. I still take it!

    Excited to read upcoming posts! Still loving your book! And, finally planted a potager because of your lovely family’s example.

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  6. Theanne

    Dear Angela…you’re on the downhill slope and with your families help you’ll make it. Wow I”m constantly blown away when I think about you having your 6th child. But if anyone can do it you can and you will 🙂

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  7. Dore @ Burlap Luxe

    Beautifully said Angela, and what a team force you surround yourself with…I so remember the pain, nothing in the world compares, and if anyone can embrace it? It’s you my dear….
    Your longing for late spring beauty, blooms and blossoms, the fresh misty dew of onions forcing through the ground I often wonder and never take for granit that beauty is at hand and it’s what we make of it.

    Your family is beautiful, and why not even out the numbers? 6 soon and 8 with mom and dad at the head of the table. I love a table set for 8 🙂
    Awaiting this baby sweetness into your family is nothing short of another beautiful life. Can’t wait to see the carriage sitting in your garden learning how to sew a seed at such a young age.
    Every moment of your life is not only treasured by you, but by your happy followers who learn a little more about life.

    Enjoy the days ahead of you, awaiting his wonderful birthright, and the revealing of his name.

    Xx
    Bisous

    Doré

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  8. Janet

    I am so glad to find your pregnancy going well! You had not posted in so long that I was worried.
    Do you already know that it is a boy? How neat to have an even mix. I have 4 boys and 4 girls…..of course I chose 6 of mine, only 2 are biological. I tell people it’s easy to keep the mix even when you hand pick them=)

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  9. Gail

    Angela, your children are blessed to see your happiness with each baby, they will remember how you loved them each differently but to you, all the same. Enjoy the waiting, everything precious comes in time.
    Wishing you a beautiful summer in the garden with your family by your side.
    xo,
    Gail

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